Valentines Day

Disclaimer:  I did not write this letter with the intention of making my husband feel like I want more than what he is giving me.  I admit, a few years back, I can't help but be envious of all the other people making grand surprises or even simply giving flowers on Valentines Day.  I remember how I used to expect a rose, or expect to be surprised only to end up sad and brokenhearted because I didn't receive any.  I also remember the moments when Lloyed put in a lot of effort knowing that I'll be really sad if he doesn't.  See, he is not the "flowers" or surprises kind of guy (ever since ha ha ha) But he is the man who loves me every single day and he does his best to make me feel extra special all the days of my life.

But let's admit it, us girls want more to a point where we sometimes fail to appreciate what we actually have.  I have been like that too (a lot of times in the past lol) but I have learned that happiness is when we truly love with all our hearts and see how very much loved we are.

And yes this year, he brought me flowers, which Ysa played with and turned into confetti.  And yes, I am over the flower craze unlike many years ago.  Hahaha.  But before I sign off today, which is pretty late at 2 AM, I want to share this.

Dear Honey,

I used to remember how every Valentine came and went without me expecting for a big surprise.  And in my head I could only count those times when you would give me flowers just because you wouldn’t want to make me feel so bad Hahaha.  I remember all those hours I spent searching for the world’s most romantic proposals on youtube and going sappy over them.  All the time, I would cry over other people’s love stories secretly hoping I’d get that surprise proposal one day like every woman dreams of.  For the last few days I have seen surprises left and right of how love is being romantically professed yet what came as a surprise was how I felt about them.

You and I both know that I have spent almost all our relationship expecting so much romance from you hoping that you’d be that guy who’ll surprise me with big romantic gestures of love.  But this year, like the last, I have realized that the kind of love that you have for me is one that is calm and quiet. A love that is dependable and endearing – that my expectations (and past frustrations) give you so much injustice.  Sorry hon.

So this Valentines Day I’d like to make it extra special by letting you know that I love you for everything that you are.  I love that you make my everydays feel like Valentines.  I love that you wake me up every morning and tell me how beautiful you think I am (even with the evident weight gain).  I love that you have learned to accept that I don’t lose anything but only misplace them (almost always).  I love that you do your best for me and the kids every single second of your life.  But most of all, I love feeling safe and complete just by being with you.

Thank you for being my little piece of heaven every single day.  This is our 13^th Valentines together, can you believe it?  I love you forever and ever.

Happy Valentines Day to the man who swept me off my feet in the most unconventional ways!

Love,

Jill

Happy Valentines to my gorgeous husband!