First Monday of March

There's just too much cuteness in this photo, I felt like I had to post it.

I feel like it's been a while since I've written something down. Probably since my dad went home three weeks ago and just recently flew out again, I've been up and about trying to be at different places, meeting different people every single time. But it's been really fulfilling having to balance all of them.  In fact, I've never been this happy! Ironic thing is we've heard it time and again when they say stress is all in the mind.  Really, that's all there is to it.  All in the mind.  When it gets to me, I breathe in and out and remind myself that.

A lot of things have happened lately.  Have I mentioned we've made a decision to not have help at all?  But that deserves a  separate post.  Although as of writing I have no idea where this is headed to.

Although a bit blurry, this was the fun times at Ipar's for Valentine's Day.

And these two little boys are just too cute!

Jumbled thoughts all in my mind. I've been thinking of what to write down for the past few days.  I was hoping to post the short escapade we had with my parents but they are very privy it won't pass through the parental screening board. LOL. So right now as I sit here on my couch after mopping the floor clean (with the throbbing pain around my whole body haha) I can't help but think of all the weight I've lost. It's been 50+ lbs.

October 2014 at the time when I was still starting out with the lifestyle change.

January 2015 - I run 4 Pru

Feb 2015 - with collarbones

I can't help but try this out :( so I did.

To be honest, it's been two months that I've practically yoyo-d around that number.  It's attributed to a lot of factors really.  Number one being the fact that I have been made to believe (by myself, of course) that this is pretty much good enough.  Number 2 to 100 I could come up with a lot of other things. I told myself Coby's birthday was a dinner buffet how could I say no?  Or to my mom's home cooked meals I loved as a child and now I get to savor after such a long time. (Haven't seen her for a year). Or the fact that if I go down a size or two lower I have to buy new clothes again?!? Or my hair has been falling out and I am not very comfortable with it although they say it's normal. Or that I have to carry a paper bag to bring my "baon" wherever I go. Or my beautiful friends telling me it is good enough and according to them I look very lovely.  For Pete's sake people, these are my beautiful friends! The gorgeous ones I have wanted to emulate. Hahaha! Who am I kidding? It just goes back to number 1.

This was in June 2014 when I have already started toying with the idea of starting with Cohen.

So if there's one thing I have to take away from this whole experience it's another cliche.  There are 101 reasons why you cannot do it but only 1 reason why you could/would/should.  Tricky part is your benchmark can't be shallow.  I was honestly happy with 50 lbs and I came to a point where I didn't mind not losing 32 lbs more. I felt beautiful, healthy and happy.  But I am now asking myself this:  Why did I start this Cohen journey in the first place? The answer still remains: TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL WEIGHT. 

To do that I have to lose 32 lbs more.  Since I'm leaving for an international convention by the end of the month and probably another one by April or May, I have almost conceded and told myself a few more pounds would be fine but maybe 32 is too big a goal at this point.  But a while ago I gave myself a long heavy look at the mirror (there's one behind my couch aha moment hehe) and asked myself if I am willing to do it with the same commitment as I did when I started.

So even if Mr LVP brought this from Manila, I didn't even attempt to get a bite.

The answer is a resounding yes.  But I have to put it here as a reminder to weather it through in spite of the challenges.  I have never been known as a quitter and I will start as if it's my first day.

Before I end this post, I'd like to share to you how the last few months have impacted my life and the way I look at things.  When I scanned through my photos a few months ago, who would've thought I'd look the way I do now?  Everything and anything is possible if we lift everything to God and do the necessary work.  I definitely include The Lord because without Him, nothing can ever be done. And it's exactly like that in almost about any aspect of our lives.  Be it personal, family, career or business.  It's all one and the same: we have faith and stay committed.

A good friend of mine shared his favorite quote to me: "When you eat eggs and ham for breakfast, the chicken makes a contribution while the pig makes a commitment."

One of my favorite bags that got so damaged and only looks great with a filter. hehe I'm now inspired because this is my lunchbag. LOL.

Committing ourselves towards our goals, dreams, and even our relationships means we have to lose part if not all of ourselves, entail a number of sacrifices just to make things work.  While the chicken contributes part of itself through its eggs, the pig died so we can enjoy some mouth-watering ham (which I'm not allowed to eat by the way hehe). That my dear friends is real commitment.

Let's get back to this! Go!

It's the first working day of March.
To 32 lbs more! 
So Help Me God.