Trust is like a precious porcelain cup. Once it is broken, it can never go back to the way it was. Maybe we can pick up the pieces and slowly stick them together but it can never go back to the way it was - precious. If there's a valuable lesson to be learned in the roller coaster of the last few months, it is that I should value myself first.
I've always been the person a lot of people call naive but I think idealistic would be more appropriate. I forgive and forget easily. I give what I can, all that I can, even to a point where nothing's left of me. I was often told I wear my heart on my sleeve (it was in my highschool yearbook too) But we come to a point in our lives when all that matters to us is our happiness. And sometimes it means putting boundaries so that other people will tread cautiously, so that other people will not cross the line.
Non-confrontational as I always have been, I believe that the best victories are won in silence. But that's just who I am. Walang basagan ng trip. LOL. A great mind once told me that if I try to make everyone else happy, part of my happiness gets sacrificed. So I decided that it's about time that I choose myself first. I have forgiven and I want to let go of this pain. This time, I choose my happiness.
